Love Me Again

Episode 4

“After spending an eternity with that someone, there would still be the little stuffs you would need to learn about them over time”

This is how it has been after about 3years of us living together, I suddenly get offended over every little thing i used to laugh at when we were still newbies in our marriage, and I couldn’t help but conclude after 2years of tieing the knot, I out grew those feelings I had. Barbara and I dated for a year and got married in our second year and after the second year, I realized the love is replaced by hatred.

So basically 3years of living together, I now think we weren’t meant to love each other.

I didn’t think marriage was this much a baggage, you think you know someone well enough to spend your whole life with, but then there are little things you might get to adjust to later

Later in the evening, while driving back home I kept asking myself why I am so furious over just a little thing.

Was it because it’s becoming a pattern or because I felt she was never like that and might become a problem when we finally start having kids. Yes! Kids, we’ve been trying since we got married.

We planned on adopting but wanted to give it a little time. By the time I realized I was home, instantly greeted by my wife. Darling welcome, how was your day.

I replied fine. She quickly dropped my suit and bag. Rushed to the kitchen to get the dinner table la!d whiles I sat there watching TV. Darling food is ready. She knows I like to eat before taking my bath.

We sat to eat and just for her to keep starring at her food.

I ignored once more, and rushed down to the washroom to throw up Barbara what is that! I fumed, she came rushing to the room.

Clyde what is it, are you okay Are you asking me? Ask the food you cooked.

Clyde am sorry, I just…. You just what huh I dashed out and luckily I was still in my work attire, I took my car keys and left. I went to a restaurant closer to our house and ordered eba and agushie stew, as I was eating I thought to myself; Barbara is a good cook, never has she cooked such a food for me. Though I would admit we’ve been having some issues for the past year regarding our feelings for each other, where we barely talked anymore, she knows I don’t joke with my food. I can’t remember the last time I touched my wife, though she always seemed not to be bothered, I just prayed it wouldn’t come to the time where I had to resort eating outside or beating her up.

But today it has! Well she might have been tired or something is bothering her.

I saw her stare at the food during dinner.

She gets that way when she has something bothering her. At least I know her to that extent. And I always end up being the one to find out everytiime. I hope she is feeling okay, I asked myself, Aaah Clyde what do you even care.

Yes what do I care, but then it got to a point I get worried when she’s not looking cheerful I hurriedly ate and drove home, I saw Barbara sleeping on the couch There and then I knew she was hurting, old feelings came rushing back in I quickly remembered when we were in love and decided to get married What happened for me to suddenly feel am falling out of love with my wife. I carried her upstairs, one thing about Babs is she is cute and easy to carry, While on the way she clinched to my shoulder and slept off I was awoke half of the night starring at her while she slept peacefully beside me. I felt some adrenaline rushing through my body while I runned my hand through her silky hair that once our happy days makes me droll all over her. I then cast my mind back to what once was love now hatred.