Hidden Dreams

Episode 42

Jay….
Holding her now small body in my arms I let the warm tears run my face. I couldn’t help it, seeing my Angela so thin and pale made me feel so vulnerable.

She sobed softly in my arms holding me like she was afraid if she let go I would disappear.
After some minutes of having her in my embrace I pulled back and looked at her deep sad eyes. Her beauty was still evident even with the loss of weight.

She tried to smile but the curve of her mouth wasn’t reaching beyond her cheekbone.
” when did this happen?” I finally found my voice. It was the first thing that came out of me.

” am sorry Jay, I didn’t want to put you through so much pain. I wanted you to be happy and achieve your dreams. I didn’t want to have you all worried about me and I asked your father to keep it a secret.” She cried her voice so weak.
” I know he told me and I was very sad and upset when I heard the news. You two had no right to keep this from me. You should have trusted me more My love, I told you to keep me informed about everything in your life. How can you just shut me off like that? You have no idea how much I waited for your call or even a text. ” I let it out. I couldn’t get upset with her in her condition , I just went soft upon seeing her. .

” am sorry, I shut you off but am happy you are here now I can say my good bye. Am sure you and our baby will have a long and wonderful life togather” she sniffed..
” what? Where are you going and what do you mean our baby?” I questioned, surprised as I sat on the bed close to her.
” your father has not told you?” She looked outside where my father and her sister in law stood.
” No… He he only told me about your heart condition. What’s going on love?”
She leaned her back to the bed and looked at me. I held her soft hand rubbing it gently
” tell me now please” I begged
She went on telling me how she found out she was pregnant for me and how the Doctor diagnosed her with some heart cancer. What she had to go through all alone to ensure she gave birth to our baby girl who she named Blessings.

I was numb for a moment my eyes filled with tears partly for joy I was a father and mostly for the news that she had only some limited time to live. She struggled to explain her condition to me and I just couldn’t take it anymore…

” you are not dying Angela. You cannot die on me like that. No, no way. Am here now” I shifted closer to her as if my closeness would cure her.
” you can not give up on us my love, don’t say that again cause am not taking this from you anymore. Please tell me you will fight hard to live please promise me. You made me promise to come back and here I am love. I came back for you please dont abandon me. I don’t know anything about kids and I don’t think I will manage to raise our baby without you. Come on Angela, tell me you will not die on me ” I cried pleading my face wet with tears.

she was crying too and she shook her head all the way as I pleaded with her. ” calm down my love,” she held my wet face. ” you have to be strong for all of us.”

” Look at me, Jared” she shook my head to make my tearly eyes look at her.
” the doctors said I don’t have enough time. You have to let me go my love, let me go please and be strong, you are stronger than you think. Just look at how far you have come. You are the strongest and most courageous man I know and I know you will make it with out me.” She cried her face shaking.
“I can’t Angela. I don’t care what the Doctors say am going to take you out of here” I stood up.

” come on, we can find a specialist doctor any where in the World. You will see, you will be fine and strong again” I smiled teary.
She wiped her tears? Smiling at me. ” you are special Jared Zimba, I really wish I had more time to live by your side.”
” and you will Love, trust me. You will.” I added.